At a time when most people could say, “Hand on heart”, that we are more connected to one another than ever before, I would say that we continue to feel more and more disconnected that ever.
Sure, we can interact with people on a daily basis, some even minute by minute, across the social media platforms, yet if we were to ask the question of why we do this, we would probably get one answer, “I want to feel that my deep longing inside of me is being met”. The reality is that at some level it does provide a temporary fix, yet when it is over we need the fix again, and again, or to have more of it, more frequently.
The same is true for the other fixes that we seek in order to fill the gap, be it alcohol, drugs, sex, television, work, etc.
Does it fill the gap or does it numb the need for a moment?
I was reminded of this quite starkly whilst watching a short clip of Christian Pankhurst and a member of the audience on stage with him. She had the courage to get on the stage and to ask for what she wanted. She asked to be seen and held by Christian, and for her not to diminish the experience by continuing to maintain eye contact with him.
It was a most profound and beautiful moment. At first he stood about five feet away and looked at her, quietly, fully and totally in the moment. You could appreciate some of what she was experiencing, perhaps for the first time in her life, through the way she breathed and how her posture changed. You knew this was already having an impact on her.
Christian then moved closer, to within an arm’s length, still maintaining full eye contact and completely present with her. She started to laugh awkwardly, and moved her hand to her mouth a few times. She was totally experience the feeling of being seen. You could see her body ‘drop’ or on reflection, surrender to what she was now feeling.
He then asked if it would be alright to touch her, to which she replied, “Yes”. Christian then placed his hands on her upper arms and held them. Throughout all of this, both maintained eye contact. Her awkward laugh changed to tears and then to uncontrollable sobbing. At which point Christian asked her, “Tell me when you have had enough?”, which was enough for her to smile again, this time from a more joyous position, at which point they were able to embrace, which they did for about a minute.
How many times are we not seen, not heard?
Each time we get ignored we bury it inside, so as not to cause us further pain. Yet it sits there, eating away, influencing our view of self (not worthy, not enough, insignificant) and how we see the world (threatening, unfriendly, cold). Our bodies react to this as a threat and in doing so many negative chemicals are released, we go into a state of fight or flight, and we continue to live in fear.
On the plus side, when we do get seen or heard the impact can be considerable, the healing it gives, namely, the release of positive chemicals inside us, the affirming, the acceptance, the validation and the allowing, enables each of us to make a small step forward to being more of who we really are and to more fully ‘show up’ in the world.
Who could you be present with today and really see and hear them?